a bottomless pit of love

Weekly Diary Entry #3

i don’t like it when you touch me

when i feel you so much my mind goes blank

i want you so much it consumes me

i want you to consume me completely

i want to feel you completely

but I’m terrified of your love

of your touch because i know

i know that if you look at me

i’ll fall apart and i know that if

you touch me, i’ll become a disgusting

pleasure-monster and i know if you

love me i’ll forget who i am

i’ll become whatever you are,

whatever you want me to be

that i’ll do anything for your love

you’ll see that there’s nothing inside

and then i’ll die because i don’t want

you to see and i don’t want to see either

but if you leave I’ll die too

so what should I do

This story is the last of a collection of poems, short stories and introspective diary entries, called “Grimoire of a Weird Person II”. Thank you for having read them