find 3 things
things lately
[ i’m being guided lately ]
she told us to find 3 things, 3 spaces.
i found this one
6:18pm to 6:25pm
what i wrote after:
a beautiful one. truly beautiful.
on the right is a path, dimly lit by an orange light, leading to a forest, to another place.
the rest is a long river (kinda nostalgic, like that park in the city i grew up in). it’s misty and dreamy in the distance. the light reflects on the water, like a dream i’d half remember. i’m standing on a bridge.
i see these pretty leaves float on the water. they sway. they flow. they welcome me. they make their way, going toward the misty haze.
i’m happy i found this place. now i have to go.
not long after, after following the path, i found this place.
6:27pm to 6:34pm
what i wrote:
an apartment complex. it’s big and engulfing.
everyone inside feel stuck between its harsh walls and ceilings.
i didn’t like it at first. and yet…
the more i look at it, the more i see its beauty. it’s not ugly.
there’s this window with midsummer night’s curtains.
then i walked around the building and saw these shining christmas lights.
i feel this wave of self-consciousness as i walk next to some screaming kids.
i feel that perhaps this place isn’t the ugly one. i am the monster of this place.
i continued down a road i know a bit.
i was not lost but i didn’t know where i was.
then i found the 3rd place.
6:38pm to 6:43pm
the one that’s supposed to leave me indifferent.
the worst of the bunch. i did a task; the burden of “necessary” responsibilities.
the building leaves me feeling ambivalent. not because it’s boring, but because it has beautiful and uninteresting parts.
tags and red and white and trash and signs and bricks and i imagine myself coming here to work everyday.
anyways, that’s what i was given today.
thanks for coming with me :)
happy month of the dead.
with love and stars,
casper. ✮⋆˙