i want to have a voice
cutting some last strands
i want to have a voice
an old wound. the fear of others. of using my voice.
the fear of falling in love. the fear of feeling fully. of exploding.
of being rejected once again. because people don’t care to hear my voice.
to listen for it. and it still scares me how much i don’t have a sense of self.
but i know this: i just wanna feel fully. this ‘no matter what/in the now’ holds the truth, power and flow i’m looking for.
you are someone else. i am still right here.
it’s okay if i lose myself.
it’s okay for me to feel my feelings.
it’s okay for me to feel them fully.
i do not owe people their expectations, even if i sense them.
who do i love? what do i want? people can’t destroy me anymore.
it’s not like it was before. i am safe. so the question becomes: how do i feel about you?