Lonely Lonely Nobody

Sep 17, 2024

Nobody

By my side

Ever.

Even those with

Unconditional love—

Nobody.

So envious of those who can keep them

Close.

I can’t, and I don’t know why.

“I’m no good, not okay. I can’t

Stay here. I’m too flawed to be

Here. Too much, not enough.”

I haven’t done enough.

I’ve taken too much.

I’m no good.

I need to get out of here.

Because I feel we can’t reach

Each other anymore.

“You’re awful for having

Made me feel this way.

I feel I’m awful too, always.”

What I feel is I can’t

Say anything, and

You can say everything.

I feel I’m always

Afraid to explode;

That I can’t have

My catharsis.

Because you will leave.

You will reject me.

“It’s me, it’s always my fault!

But is it your fault too? Yes, but no.

I guess it’s just me. Get me out of here.”

This story is part of a collection of poems, short stories and introspective diary entries, called “Grimoire of a Weird Person II”.

Casper's Diary